Alive and Awry

I realised I should really be thankful for what I’ve managed to achieve thus far. And I also realised that actually, JJ and Maverick were/are really the best companions anyone in the world could ever dream to find. Whenever I felt stressed out or down, just poking at their fats or kneading their soft fur becomes the perfect panacea. Although JJ is no longer around, I know I gotta feel thankful for the fact that my little darling boy can still provide me that sweetness only a dog is capable of.

Singapore is a really small city. The past two days, I’ve been bumping into people I know wherever I go. Yesterday, at Parkway Parade, I saw Cui Shan and Angelia, who was with her mum. And today, I met Jun Yang on bus 38 as I was on my way to meet the others for our tiny 4E1 lunch gathering and Lynette at the Bedok MRT platform. And then I saw the two of them again later on at CityLink. It seems like every walk through CityLink, you’ll bound to see a familiar face in the masses. Oh, and it was later on that I met Jesmond at the Marina Square pool area. It was such a coincidence! His eyes flickered with recognition the moment he saw me but it took him a couple of seconds to remember my name. I wouldn’t be surprised if he had forgotten it. OH! And when I was having dinner with my family at this coffee shop near my house today, I saw Boon Tiong! He was with his Church friends having dinner too! I went up to say ‘Hi!’ and he showed me his permed hair. It’s really funny seeing permed hair on a guy but it did look good on him and I guess that’s all that really matters to a guy. Like he said, guys LOVED to have girls fanning their ego. Typical MCP. Ha!

Yesterday, as I was getting back my results, I was given more than enough time to take in the sights and sounds bustling all around me. Everyone has really changed so much. Schoolmates, classmates alike. Only the teachers seemed to have time frozen in place because they all look pretty much the same, not that they are able to change really much anyway. My classmates, they have all really matured into fine young people. It’s pretty awesome. The girls are now all demure ladies while the guys, it’s an obvious change as they transit from boys into man. Awwwww. And of course, not to mention that everyone looks so good – their dress sense, the way they carry themselves, everything! Too bad a couple of my classmates weren’t able to make it so it wasn’t really a full class reunion or anything like that. Not that it would have really made a difference if everyone came, but still, just because.

Eehwee mentioned something on her blog that really made me feel guilty. I don’t know why it gets to me because I do know that I didn’t do it on purpose yet the fact that I knew I did it and I made her feel bad, that sucks. I wished I had kept my big mouth shut and just listened to her instead of jumping to conclusions. I should really change. I don’t mean to make her feel worse than she has to go through already. DAMN me.

I was supposed to go SMU open house today but due to circumstances, I didn’t manage to go. It was raining pretty heavily over at Suntec where I had lunch anyway. Jerome was already there listening to his sister give a talk or something at a much earlier time so the idea of making my way there myself was pretty unappealing. After which, Zhikang mentioned that he was at Starbucks but he was leaving soon so it was to be rushed if I were to go meet him. Oh well, it’ll be a few weeks later then!

Today was supposed to be a 4E1 lunch gathering but somehow, it seemed like everyone was so caught up in their lives that it was hard to set aside some time to join the rest of us. Eventually, it was just Sam, Li Ming, Wee, Sean, Willfred, Bryan and I! We had a really sumptuous lunch at ‘Pepper Lunch’! It was my first time there and I swear the food’s damn good! Okay, so I had chicken but their chicken is good, and I believe everyone else also left the place with a happy stomach. Although Sam and I are in the same school for the last two years, we hardly see each other around. So today we had a good catch-up-cum-chit-chat-cum-gossip session and Sam’s really nice to talk to. I told her about ZH and I’m surprised she had no clue at all it ever happened. Then again, not many people did. It was over before it even began. It was also nice seeing Li Ming again, although I coincidentally met her on Tuesday when I was with Shem and ZY. Li Ming always has that cheery smile on her face =D Sean looks really good. As much as he always denies it, I think a part of him knows it too. His blue lenses suit him; it perks up his whole image. Willfred and Wee are still as easy to talk to as ever. Willfred has always been that super good listener so today, I abused that good side of his again and made him listen to my rambling. Wee and I got into this really animated discussion of how it would be like if we were to have a class gathering 60 years from now – which would make us 78! It was super hilarious because we talked about bringing our children and grandchildren and the maids along for the gathering. We old folks would be entertaining ourselves while the laughter of the kids would be twinkling in the vicinity. We could probably play Mahjong but since we would all be so old and possibly senile, Wee kept enacting how we would throw a tile and forget what we just threw. And while we chit-chat, we would easily forget each other’s name and keep asking the same question over and over ‘Sorry, but who are you again?’ in a slow, croaked voice. JUST IMAGINE. It can be freaking amusing. And of course, it was so nice seeing Bryan again. It’s like so long since the rest and I saw him so today, the fact that he came, it made everything all the more memorable. Bryan, you must really come more often in future alright! And you REALLY remind me of my cousin – which is a compliment I think – because I find that cousin of mine uber cool =p

And Li Min also called me just now. It’s always nice when the Soka people drop me a call or an SMS to find out how I’m doing. But I feel kinda bad because I’m usually not able to attend their meetings and such. It’s probably because it’s not a part of my life so I don’t tend to factor it in when I plan my time. And Li Min gave me three books on this Buddhism which I’ve yet to really start reading. I should do so soon as I think she’s probably expecting me to return it to her.

I thought I'd upload my little anime work I accomplished a couple of days back! Pretty noob-ish stuff but hey, first attempt!

And yes, I’m going to turn nineteen so soon. I still don’t feel the word ‘OLD’ looming in my mind, not just yet anyway. But then again, it would be pretty stressful if I kept thinking I’m going to turn old old old because that would mean everyday I’m aging and becoming OLD. And everyday just brings me closer to the ultimate inevitability – Death. Who would wanna live that way huh?

I think my mind’s so fragmented today. Everything I write has no sense of sequence or coherence. I’m also getting so absent-minded, forgetting things that I usually don’t. My mind’s in a whirl, it’s going awry.